| Cynthia Ward 2005-10-14, 1:02 am |
| Thanks Candi he didn't explain that but I didn't know what it was till
I looked it up. That makes sense. The one thing I have never had is
depression but I do get mad at the limitations. I have always been
pretty tough and to admit I can't do something makes me mad. Giggle been
there my daughter Bless her heart was a incredibly fussy baby. She had
colic so bad and was extremely shy but so pretty ( not just mom talking)
that everyone always wanted to touch her she had the beautiful blonde
Shirley Temple riglets. Green eyes. She would just turn inside out and
cry when ever anyone said anything to her. She had tantrums I had to
wait to soothe her she would not talk to anyone except us and her
brother her talked for her she had hearing loss due to allergies. We
really worried about school. She never slept. It was rough till she was
about school age. She settled in about half way through kindergarten.
My son was so easy as a baby and child I always said if I had another
child it would be a holy terror lol they are 7 years apart thank
goodness!! He did make up for it as a teen really really rough.
But she is an absolute delight now beautiful and bright and so brave.
She nurtures me in a way no one can she can always tell when I am going
to have a seizure before I can sometimes. She goes right into nurse
mode. She can look in my eyes and tell what kinda day I have been having
and will cook dinner or clean up.She and my husband and son are the top
of my Hero list. I would be lost with out her. I am in awe that she came
from my husband and me. We really created something amazing and I hope I
get to see her as a full grown woman and get to spend sometime with that
beautiful woman that is what I want more than anything in this world.
Because I know she is going to be great in anything she takes on. I
believe it is our jobs in life to improve on what we were born to. My
childhood was a little rough my mom was an alcoholic and a very wounded
soul. I learned to forgive her I know she did the best she could with
what she knew how to do. And I never did to my kids what she did. So I
improved that for her. And I know my daughter will be braver than me and
do more in life than I did. But I would never trade being home with my
kids and I thank my husband for that. It was hard at times but it
worked. I am especially glad now as realistically I may not share in
there future, I do plan on it but I know the risks of my situation and
make every day count. lotsa I love yous and hugs. I also keep 3 journals
one for each child and one for my hubby thoughts and poems and quotes
and so on something personal from me to them. just so they know
ok I guess I needed to talk a little hope I didn't carry on to long
thanks again for listening you all are so important to me.
I bought 50 Lupus wrist bands I am going to put them in christmas cards
and such (0: Just liked the idea
Thanks again
Love Cindy
Candi Bowen wrote:
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>Hi Cindy, I haven't tried those particular meds but I know the
>antidepressants in small doses are supposed to help the pain receptors in
>your brain so you don't feel pain as much. When they prescribed them for me,
>my doc assured me that it wasn't for depression, although I WAS depressed
>because of constant pain, but to change my brain chemistry so I wouldn't
>(maybe) feel the pain as much. 16 children?! God bless her; glad it's her &
>not me. I had the baby from hell. He's 28 now & wonderful but the 1st 3
>years - well . . .
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>Candi
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