| Gut-buster 2005-04-28, 10:52 pm |
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<QQQte@webtv.net> wrote in message
news:1234-4270EEB2-36@storefull-3134.bay.webtv.net...
> gut-buster i was not referring to you. you didn't even enter my my
> mind.. i was referring to ironjustice... since you last replied to my
> post an shared about who you are.. the troll i thought you were was
> erased from my mind. i read all your all posts..... and do my best to
> get the hang of what your saying...... give your self a break. you
> deserve it.... dory
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Cant afford to give myself a break Dory. I got sick enough for it to affect
my work quality and thus my income when I was still young enough that I
thought I had a lifetime ahead of me and the income to match. I still have
the debts from those days and more and I have about half to 2/3 of that
income that I had back then in 1990.
The moment I truly give in is the moment I go broke. I am fighting a losing
battle on paper but it is slowly and I figure I have about 5 years left to
me to live. I am attempting to make sure that the debt level doesn't break
the dam in that time. After that point my wife gets the house paid off by an
insurance policy I have and gets about A$100,000 on top (which is around
US$70,000 odd). It's all that I have to give her and all that I can
ultimately do at that point but before then, I cannot give in. I only hope
that I don't live longer than 5 years because in that time I will be worse
off no matter that I am around 15Kg lighter and losing weight daily. If I
live longer then I have to do something else. Suicide is illegal in this
country and thus I cannot even do that much for my wife or she gets NO
payout. What I would do if I lived longer than 55 years of age I don't know
but I am hoping against hope that I don't.
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