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| Robert C. Corkum 2005-09-24, 1:22 pm |
| /RANT mode ON:
okay its been like 5 days now one kind of migraine or the other I get
common migraines no aura, light sensitive and so on yadda yadda.
tonight its my neck jaw feels like it pushing my spine around.
I could so easily toss engine blocks for sport atm. its getting to me
I admit. I got enough pain med's on my desk to sink a small navy into
bliss, but I hate the stupid med's, I just want me, pain free me and
maybe Murphy is just my god but anyone ever notice maybe your just
more sensitive to them. that small things just go wrong and wrong when
your paining.
I avoid people when I hurt I try not to be mean or even look like I'm
paining I don't like to make family and friends feel bad but I do
stuff when I can when I'm paining to distract myself, code on PC, work
on electronics, if I can, when tis to bad I lay in the dark but I
won't let myself do that I know its dumb but I fight them to much well
so this week I swear 3 pieces of gear just up and died for no apparent
reason and maybe I can fix them no idea I just don't feel like it
right now because I FEEL like grabbing my head and ripping it off my
shoulders, tossing it in the deepfreeze and getting a good nights
sleep.
the worst thing is I can toss engine blocks I have to watch my
strength when I get a migraine its hard to gauge, I'm a big lad and I
don't lift for sport or to show off but I can lift what I want when I
want so say I'm paining hard sometimes I close a door to hard or
almost set a glass down gentle and it slams into the table. I feel so
tense its like the muscles are revving to go. and yes I should relax
and be calm and gentle and I'm not pissed off, I'm not and not
depressed but I'd gladly invade a small country to get my neck and
head feeling good for a month. so here I set tonight twiddling my
thumbs. can't go into Linux and code because my external modem died
(yes I live in dialupville, or as I tell friends, no pizza, no cell,
no cable, no dsl). and I know there are thousands worse off tonight
and that's low balling it.I just feel so held back by this damn
migraines, 37 years old and I haven't worked in 14 years now. did a
resume up the other day now trying for a job that I might be a dream
job but its now been 3 weeks so not holding my breath, I feel everyday
like a race horse led to the starting gate and the race is cancelled
on kind of pain.
I swear this keeps up I'm taking my crayons and coloring book and
going home!, except the blue one, that I let to a friend.
/rant mode off
Robert
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| Liz Spindola 2005-09-24, 1:22 pm |
| Rant away.... sometimes it just feels good to put some of that crappy pain
on the monitor instead of holding it inside. Go ahead and take your pain
meds!!! I know you hate 'em, but it sounds like the only way you're going
to get some relief from this.
I just had another thought -- do you think this one is different from your
other headaches? Think maybe you need a trip to the ER? I can kinda answer
my own questions, given what you've written. I just don't want you to miss
something that might need medical attention.
That said.... now go get your meds, ice and a dark room and go into la-la
land for a while. You deserve a break from this.
Liz
(Check in tomorrow... hope you're feeling MUCH better!)
"Robert C. Corkum" <rcorkum@ns.sympatico.ca> wrote in message
news:qia4i1pu1fm8pjh5uhkdoirjfa2m2upas2@4ax.com...
> /RANT mode ON:
>
> okay its been like 5 days now one kind of migraine or the other I get
> common migraines no aura, light sensitive and so on yadda yadda.
> tonight its my neck jaw feels like it pushing my spine around.
>
> I could so easily toss engine blocks for sport atm. its getting to me
> I admit. I got enough pain med's on my desk to sink a small navy into
> bliss, but I hate the stupid med's, I just want me, pain free me and
> maybe Murphy is just my god but anyone ever notice maybe your just
> more sensitive to them. that small things just go wrong and wrong when
> your paining.
> I avoid people when I hurt I try not to be mean or even look like I'm
> paining I don't like to make family and friends feel bad but I do
> stuff when I can when I'm paining to distract myself, code on PC, work
> on electronics, if I can, when tis to bad I lay in the dark but I
> won't let myself do that I know its dumb but I fight them to much well
> so this week I swear 3 pieces of gear just up and died for no apparent
> reason and maybe I can fix them no idea I just don't feel like it
> right now because I FEEL like grabbing my head and ripping it off my
> shoulders, tossing it in the deepfreeze and getting a good nights
> sleep.
>
> the worst thing is I can toss engine blocks I have to watch my
> strength when I get a migraine its hard to gauge, I'm a big lad and I
> don't lift for sport or to show off but I can lift what I want when I
> want so say I'm paining hard sometimes I close a door to hard or
> almost set a glass down gentle and it slams into the table. I feel so
> tense its like the muscles are revving to go. and yes I should relax
> and be calm and gentle and I'm not pissed off, I'm not and not
> depressed but I'd gladly invade a small country to get my neck and
> head feeling good for a month. so here I set tonight twiddling my
> thumbs. can't go into Linux and code because my external modem died
> (yes I live in dialupville, or as I tell friends, no pizza, no cell,
> no cable, no dsl). and I know there are thousands worse off tonight
> and that's low balling it.I just feel so held back by this damn
> migraines, 37 years old and I haven't worked in 14 years now. did a
> resume up the other day now trying for a job that I might be a dream
> job but its now been 3 weeks so not holding my breath, I feel everyday
> like a race horse led to the starting gate and the race is cancelled
> on kind of pain.
>
> I swear this keeps up I'm taking my crayons and coloring book and
> going home!, except the blue one, that I let to a friend.
>
> /rant mode off
>
> Robert
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| andrew mccay 2005-09-24, 1:22 pm |
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"Robert C. Corkum" <rcorkum@ns.sympatico.ca> wrote in message
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> I get common migraines no aura,
Uh huh.
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| (((Robert))),
I don't know what to say, except I agree with Liz, try to get some rest.
Sometimes I think that trying to keep going during a migraine puts you under
too much stress and makes things worse in the longer term.
And if the pain keeps making things this bad then make sure your doctor
knows what it is like... no good having an armada of meds if life is still
unbearable.
Sal
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