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| rosie read n' post 2005-08-23, 8:46 am |
| August 23, 2005
Daily Reflections
BRINGING THE MESSAGE HOME
Can we bring the same spirit of love and tolerance into our
sometimes deranged family lives that we bring to our A.A. group?
TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS , pp. 111 -112
My family members suffer from the effects of my disease. Loving and
accepting them as they are - just as I love and accept A.A. members
- fosters a return of love, tolerance and harmony to my life. Using
common courtesy and respecting other's personal boundaries are
necessary practices for all areas of my life.
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| Thanks Rosie. I needed to be reminded of that.
I remembered this morning why I go all to hell and start acting wacky.
I forget all about the third step. I have been around the block a time
or two and I do know that when I start trying to control those around,
instead of accepting them as the way they are, I get all out of whack.
It is funny, you all can tell me about things you are doing or have
done and I can accept it. It isn't so easy with family and I need to
practice this love and acceptance, instead of feeling like I demand or
deserve it.
I heard something this morning about people having an approval
addiction from others.
I think I have that, too. Anyways...
Love,
Gail
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| rockhound 2005-08-25, 11:46 am |
| On 23 Aug 2005 10:24:54 -0700, "Gail" <serenity6850_2000@yahoo.com>
wrote:
>Thanks Rosie. I needed to be reminded of that.
>I remembered this morning why I go all to hell and start acting wacky.
>I forget all about the third step. I have been around the block a time
>or two and I do know that when I start trying to control those around,
>instead of accepting them as the way they are, I get all out of whack.
>It is funny, you all can tell me about things you are doing or have
>done and I can accept it. It isn't so easy with family and I need to
>practice this love and acceptance, instead of feeling like I demand or
>deserve it.
>I heard something this morning about people having an approval
>addiction from others.
> I think I have that, too. Anyways...
>Love,
>Gail
Heh - try telling yourself the things you are doing or have done, and
accept that about yourself- makes the rest of them a LOT easier. Who
gives a shit what they think, if Gail's ok with Gail.
I like to ask myself, when i'm real sore, and beating myself with the
old proverbial club of anger, or wallowing, which of my demands are
not being met by these renegade actors who will not play the script as
provided...then i try to get to the bottom of what the heck -->i'm<--
up to.
Then, i try to become willing (faced with the maddening alternative of
death by alcoholism) to reduce these demands to something more in the
nature of requests only, and place them squarely upon the shoulders of
my seemingly silent and elusive, conceptual, 'higher power', however i
do or do not think i understand he-or-she-it at that particular
moment. Then i try to summon the wherewithal to go admit (at least to
myself, in private) that i am a conning manipulating, b-word ho who is
TRULY only out for my own interests, and would just as soon fulfill
them at the end of a gun as to sit up and beg nicely for them
(ANYTHING but actual WORK...), even though my motives may at times
appear to myself and/or others to be ok, if i've pulled off a
particularly stunning performance lately, anyway...
seems to bring the ole' ha-ha back, some, when it takes...doesn't
always work, sometimes i just get more sore about my life, my freedom,
my choices and my consequences...but at least it helps i think to put
the responsibility for my misery back where it belongs, and gives my
fellows a break for a spell...anyway. whatever. thx for letting me
share...
hth,
rockhound
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ACCEPT what and who we REALLY are - great starting point, very close
to the field the game is played on. Can spectate from there till
ready to jump in recklessly.
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| HI Rockhound. Thanks for your reply. You are right. Most, if not all,
of my problems are of my own making. Had to face that big time
yesterday. I won't go into detail but, it hurt like hell when I did
face up to it and at least, start to correct it. I didn't let how the
other person felt and said about me stop me from doing something I had
to do for my sanity and my marriage. I realized I have been loving my
son to his *death* if I didn't make some decisions.
Take care and love,
Gail
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