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| Christine 2004-11-20, 11:11 am |
| <cough, cough>
Hello. I am well. I left work Tuesday, still terribly hungover, came home and
went to bed. Wednesday I did not drink or reach out for any help - confused
and embarrassed. Yesterday I left work early (I was supposed to close so I
would have been there until the wee hours of the night), around 8pm, and went
strait to a meeting. I screamed for help. AA's rallied around. There are 4
ladies here at my house right now, having a big book circle type
intervention/babysitting, who are telling me to write this so anyone here who
cares will not be needlessly concerned. That and also to start sleeping in the
bed I have made - facing the humiliation of events that have occurred on my
drunken binges over the past few weeks/months/years. Skipping steps, IMO, but
I am not in charge here.
I'm not to thrilled to be writing this. I am extremely embarrassed (again) and
wasn't planning on ever coming here again. However, since this newsgroup was
such a large part of my attempt at sobriety before, and has continued to be my
link with the sober world when I turned my back on f2f meetings/people, the
ladies feel it best I repair any bridges I may have burned here. Seems strange
to feel so close to a changing group of people I don't even really know,
however, the attachment is here.
Hmmm ... no promises, but I am trying. Apologies all around for posting while
SO lit (again). Hopefully that will no longer be an issue. Thanks to everyone
for being here. Humbled, I am.
Thank you all again
Christine
P.S. I did not know I could call my local AA # and asked to be 12 stepped or
babysat after work on Tuesday. It never entered my mind. If I had known, I
would have done so.
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"Christine" <ctbean3@aol.com> wrote in message
news:20041119133057.21805.00000798@mb-m14.aol.com...
> <cough, cough>
>
> Hello. I am well. I left work Tuesday, still terribly hungover,
came home and
> went to bed. Wednesday I did not drink or reach out for any help -
confused
> and embarrassed. Yesterday I left work early (I was supposed to
close so I
> would have been there until the wee hours of the night), around 8pm,
and went
> strait to a meeting. I screamed for help. AA's rallied around.
There are 4
> ladies here at my house right now, having a big book circle type
> intervention/babysitting, who are telling me to write this so anyone
here who
> cares will not be needlessly concerned. That and also to start
sleeping in the
> bed I have made - facing the humiliation of events that have
occurred on my
> drunken binges over the past few weeks/months/years. Skipping
steps, IMO, but
> I am not in charge here.
This news is good news :^)
>
> I'm not to thrilled to be writing this. I am extremely embarrassed
(again) and
> wasn't planning on ever coming here again.
I'm glad you got the better of your embarrassment :^) Sometimes,
sharing stuff with a bunch of faceless folk on the internet is a damm
sight easier than sharing the same stuff f2f and, furthermore, can
result in the receipt of some dam good advice. IMO, someone who allows
their embarrassment to stop them again reaching out for help to the
same folk who they think have previously have been helpful to them,
are not necessarily doing themselves a favour. From personal
experience, I know this to be true :^)
> However, since this newsgroup was
> such a large part of my attempt at sobriety before, and has
continued to be my
> link with the sober world when I turned my back on f2f
meetings/people, the
> ladies feel it best I repair any bridges I may have burned here.
Seems strange
> to feel so close to a changing group of people I don't even really
know,
> however, the attachment is here.
Dear Christine,
Even if you decide to have nothing more to do with this NG, I will not
hold that against you. Instead, probably from time to time I will
again find you in my thoughts and be hoping that you are continuing to
do what you need to do in order to not let your drinking destroy you.
All the best.
Love
JB
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| George &The Dragon 2004-11-20, 11:11 am |
| Hi Christine,
I haven't been a regular on the NG for some time, but I well remember your
posts last year and they were very helpful to me when I was going through a
difficult time.
Stick with the plan. You're definitely worth it.
Aye,
George
& the Dragon
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| Dan McGown 2004-11-20, 11:11 am |
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"Christine" <ctbean3@aol.com> wrote in message
news:20041119133057.21805.00000798@mb-m14.aol.com...
> <cough, cough>
. . . . . .
"but I am not in charge here."
Sweetie, that recognition is the beginning of all wisdom. <L> Please do
stay with it and please do check in with us and *please* work on the steps
past number 1. I really would be personally pleased if you could find your
way out of that dark, lonely woods. I was in it, too, my dear, and I am so
glad to have found my way out of it. I want you to find your way out.
Dan
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| rosie readandpost 2004-11-20, 11:11 am |
| dear christine,
i pray that you will work on staying surrendered and surround
yourself with those "who will love you until you can love yourself!"
my suggestions?
lots of meetings, lots of good food, vitamins (including 1000 meq.
B12)
a temporary sponsor, and lots of meetings! (oh, did i say that
meeting thing already?)
;)
best of everything to you,
rosie
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"Christine" <ctbean3@aol.com> wrote in message
news:20041119133057.21805.00000798@mb-m14.aol.com...
> <cough, cough>
>
> Hello. I am well. I left work Tuesday, still terribly hungover, came
> home and
> went to bed. Wednesday I did not drink or reach out for any help -
> confused
> and embarrassed. Yesterday I left work early (I was supposed to close so
> I
> would have been there until the wee hours of the night), around 8pm, and
> went
> strait to a meeting. I screamed for help. AA's rallied around. There
> are 4
> ladies here at my house right now, having a big book circle type
> intervention/babysitting, who are telling me to write this so anyone here
> who
> cares will not be needlessly concerned. That and also to start sleeping
> in the
> bed I have made - facing the humiliation of events that have occurred on
> my
> drunken binges over the past few weeks/months/years. Skipping steps, IMO,
> but
> I am not in charge here.
>
> I'm not to thrilled to be writing this. I am extremely embarrassed
> (again) and
> wasn't planning on ever coming here again. However, since this newsgroup
> was
> such a large part of my attempt at sobriety before, and has continued to
> be my
> link with the sober world when I turned my back on f2f meetings/people,
> the
> ladies feel it best I repair any bridges I may have burned here. Seems
> strange
> to feel so close to a changing group of people I don't even really know,
> however, the attachment is here.
>
> Hmmm ... no promises, but I am trying. Apologies all around for posting
> while
> SO lit (again). Hopefully that will no longer be an issue. Thanks to
> everyone
> for being here. Humbled, I am.
>
> Thank you all again
> Christine
>
> P.S. I did not know I could call my local AA # and asked to be 12 stepped
> or
> babysat after work on Tuesday. It never entered my mind. If I had known,
> I
> would have done so.
Hey Christine. GOOD FOR YOU!!! Please don't be embarrassed. Gosh, I have
been exactly where you were. I am just so glad that YOU took the step to get
help from people near you. I just wish you all the best in the days to come.
Keep us posted.
Gail
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