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Tue 18apr2006 Morning Meds

Walt R.

2006-04-18, 12:56 am

Tuesday, April 18th 2006

I have been in the AA fellowship since July 4,1978 when I got sober at
the 502 in Covina, however, even with my 'knowing' this AA
program/surrendering my life daily to my HP, being an alcoholic and
wanting everything my two year old minds way, I am still challenged by
life and my alcohol obsession not to feel my feelings.

You see I hate change. My roommate will be moving out at the end of
next month. I am fearful that "I" can not make ends meet if he moves
out. I am fearful about the rising cost of gasoline, utilities, and
everything else that is going up except my pay check. Yet you guys
remind me that the opposite of fear is faith. You remind me that much
like resentment (which is what I became when he gave me his thirty day
notice...how dare him) fear is a dubious luxury for Normie's not people
like me. I remain too full of I, I, I & me, me, Me's.

You see I still want to drink when I am happy, sad, mad, frustrated,
feeling less than, excited...you name the feeling and I want to reach
for something to stop the uncomfortable feeling. I use the tools of
this fellowship daily. I have a plan, call four people a day (doesn't
count if I get an answering machine, I pray and mediate, call my
sponsor at 6:30am, do service, attend four face to face meetings, and
three one line meetings, read my 12 & 12 daily, I write, I work the
steps.

When it comes to booze, I have a disease of amnesia. Yes, daily, I
'forget" I am a alcoholic. I seem to need more tools than most. I
carry a surrender flag in my car, often surrendering to the traffic and
the rising cost of gasoline. I drink my hot tea out of an AA cup, and I
wear surrender bracelets. I have an AA magnet on my refrigerator at
home and work. All these 'extra' tools to remind me who I am...a very
grateful recovering Alcoholic one day at a time.
NAMASTE

(Soberly Submitted by Connie A of West Covina, CA)
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fstart@bigpond.net.au

2006-04-28, 10:55 am

My name is Deidre and I am a sober, happy and very grateful alcoholic!

I picked up my first drink at the age of 14 and I drank heavily right
up until I was 40 years old. Tried to give up drinking on my own on
many occasions and failed miserably and went back to drinking every
time. I tried numerous rehabilitation centres and also failed. I
tried to go to A.A. meetings on a regular basis, but still drank in
between. I sought psychiatric help to no avail. In the end I got that
depressed because of my drinking I wanted to end my life. I was
recommended by my doctor to investigate the Fresh Start program. So I
thought to myself "I have got nothing to lose, why not give it a
try". I subsequently joined the Fresh Start program and had the
surgical implant put into the lower part of my abdomen, which was a
minor and painless operation. This implant instantly took away the
cravings of alcohol, which in turn stopped me from thinking about
alcohol. 18 months later I am still alcohol free! I have not picked
up a drink since. The desire to drink has ceased physically and
mentally. As a result I am back with my husband and 2 boys, and life
couldn't be better! I am now experiencing life sober beyond my
wildest dreams.

If you or a friend or a family member have an alcohol problem that you
can't control, please visit the Fresh Start Private website -
www.freshstartprivate.com, I guarantee you won't regret it!