| womanformerlyknownasShelayla 2004-09-28, 4:26 am |
| ....and I hope this message finds you well. I tried to post one last
night but it didn't take for some reason.
I called Kc on the phone a few weeks ago. I was telling her how much
this "place" and, a.s.a.r years before I came to a.a.r, meant to me. I
found a place where I could safely discuss how the abuse affected me.
I made good friends here. We were all pioneers in abuse recovery when
it came to bringing people together all over the world. We were the
first survivors before the reality show came on t.v. in the states..ha
ha.
I don't think of myself as a "survivor" so much anymore. Someone once
said here that they called themselves a thriver. Some just plain
didn't want labels anymore. I guess I am at that point where I feel
there is so much more to me than being an abuse survivor. I wear so
many more hats now. However, the journey was great and sometimes
terrible. The journey continues on. There is so much more to see.
To anyone I trampled on in the past, I am very sorry. There are no
excuses that I can extend. To those who remember me fondly, if they
still can in a fond way, I hope to hear from you. Feel welcome to
email me at bluhevenly@juno.com It is my secondary email address, so
I may not get the message for a few days if I forget to check it. I
did not want to use my primary email to post for all the world to see
and spam.
These days I go by "bluhevenly" or "blu". I understand if you are
more comfortable calling me Shelayla.
-blu
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