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| damodara@webtv.net 2004-09-29, 11:06 am |
| Think I'll put off my life for another day.
Do nothing to see a shrink, do nothing with my VA claim, do nothing with
the SS accounting questions I have, nothing.
Just got out of a hot tub, where I read some of a Jonathan Kellerman
novel.
PLEASE God, or as I've seen it spelled here recently G/d. (I don't know,
don't ask me.) PLEASE let me get that arearage money from county picking
up medicare these last months. I should get a n extra financial boost,
enough to buy a battery driven 15 watt amp. That will provide me with
income opportunities for as long as I own it and it works. My plan is to
play the streets. Can't get enough money in the bars.
And a portable 15 watt amp? Thousands of ideas come to mind with such a
device.
Waiting. Sit and wait. Listen to the rain.
Yeah see if I have to wait another month it will be too cold to play in
NYC or Atlantic City to the tourists. Street gigs will be over. Some
warm days in November yeah sure but...I simply can't play below fifty
eight maybe. It makes your hands stiff.
The cold freezes your joints up.
As a kid (twenties) we would get to a bar early so our hands would have
time to loosen up before play time.
Two guitars and a bass, drums. I played bass then. I had some kind of
rthyme problem at the time. Bass playing was a corrective measure. This
was late 69 early seventies.
WoW look it that rain out there. Its coming down.
Put off my life and just concerns for another day as I have for months.
It all feels hopeless anyway. My best reward comes from sitting and
waiting. Thats how it feels.
Yeah, my dream is to be a disabled guy playing guitar in the streets
with a tin cup.
Actually.......I can cut a pretty good figure with my accessories.
Artist tripod/easel with various signs, have a canopy if useful,
etc......
Guess I'll watch it rain for a while.
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| Cymbal Man Freq. 2004-09-29, 11:06 am |
| I remember in San Francisco by Union Square in front of Macy's, where I walked
by everyday to school; there was a blind man with no legs sitting on a
skateboardish platform selling pencils from a cup. He had to use his hands to
push the sidewalk to get his board around. I couldn't believe it.
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| damodara@webtv.net 2004-09-29, 11:06 am |
| I remember too a legless (maybe more) man on a wheeled platform who
carried wooden blocks in his hands to move around. Begging outside a
five and dime in Downtown Trenton on shopping night. Think it was
thursday nights. Think it was either Kresge's or Woolworths. It was
likely in the fifties.
Today he'd be beaten and his money stolen.
http://community.webtv.net/damodara/MystoryasIseeit
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| Beyond B1ue 2004-09-29, 11:06 am |
| >Think I'll put off my life for another day.
>Do nothing to see a shrink, do nothing with my VA claim, do nothing with
>the SS accounting questions I have, nothing.
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i know that feeling so well. sometimes it just seems so hard , or maybe
overwhelming
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<damodara@webtv.net> wrote in message
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> Guess I'll watch it rain for a while.
>
The weather is such a comforting thing isn't it?
My favourite time of day is when it just starts to get dark in the evening,
and a few people have switched their lights on. The odd shop window is lit
and few odd street lamps are shining. I live on the seventh floor right on
the edge of London with a view one way of miles into Central London (as far
as the Post Office Tower) and the other way, North into the countryside.
Each morning from the kitchen I can see the sun rise, or the world shrouded
in mists, and then the sun moves over to where the lounge is where I can sit
in the sun's rays and blow cigarette smoke into the beams.
I love the rain. I tell you Damo, if you like the rain you should come and
live over here in England, if you don't like the rain over here, you've had
it!
Michelle
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| Freedy 2004-09-29, 11:06 am |
| Hiya Damo,
I made a portable battery amp for a friend once.
I had a car speaker - Bose I think, cant remember the wattage but was
loud.
It was a 4 ohm one.
about 8 inches by 5 inches by 5 inches (acually it was triangular)
I got a amplifier kit from the electronics shop (probably about 15
bucks american)
and a 1/4 inch Jack socket (is that the right size/name?)
the kit had only about 8 components to it and a circuit board that was
manufactured to take them. (I think it was an 8 ohm kit though - i'm
not sure if this is ok with a 4 ohm speaker but it worked)
I assembled the kit. Made a hole in the speaker to take the socket.
wired up the speaker to the circuit.
On the back of the speaker was a couple of clips for the speaker
cables (red and black) which i used to supply external battery power
to the circuit.
It was a 12 volt dc amp. (about 20 watts i think). So you could use a
car battery to run it (maybe a car battery is to heavy to carry
around) a motorbike bike battery is smaller. Though it would run of
any 12 battery - the bike battery is rechargable but dont spill the
acid in it.
No preamp needed , used the volume control on the guitar.
Funtin loud it was.
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| damodara@webtv.net 2004-09-29, 11:07 am |
| Hi Blip,
Your place sounds wonderful.
I have a second floor apartment and I look out straight into the trees,
least out the back from my kitchen and the side windows, bed room, my
front room is bright as day as they cut all the trees down a while ago
because they were lifting the sidewalks.
I can see the steeples on St Hedwig's church and can hear the noon and 6
o'clock bells. I like to sit down and make a point of being still in
time to listen to the whole show. In the cooler months the heat from the
sun is welcome but in the warmer months it can get too hot in here, in
the front room.
I like the rain.
I took a half of a one milligram zanax earlier. I'd been saving it.
Maybe that will help get me going.
I can't explain my "not doing". It seems to be permenent this time. As
Blue was saying, overwhelmed. Thats a part of it.
My plan is to eat a good cooked breakfast.
I used to spend time with, lethergy I've called it, but it always seemed
to subside and I could go back to my doings. Its not really like I feel
depresssed. Just don't have any "go" anymore.
Getting this portable amp will mean I can walk out the door, catch a
bus, and practice out on the statehouse lawn during lunch hour. Gentle
traffic there, most eating lunch on benches.
Or maybe bus up to the University, Princeton and find a spot on a bench
there on the university grounds. Think I could get away with that.
And..etc etc......
Meanwhile Marianne will tell me to save the money and I will try not to
explain that investing in my potentials is the path.
Hiding the money and taping it slowly for various needs over months is
simply creating the same hole I'm in now.
Forward, means invest in my talent.
Tin cupping pays good I hear. Better then Bars I've heard. Instead of
going to the bank I go sit on a park bench with my lunch along side of
me, my tripod up, saying tips appreciated and offering a CD for sale.
The ideas are endless. Marianne shrieks at the coldness of such an
endevor but it won't be like that. It'll be exciting, an adventure, and
it'll get me a couple bucks.
Yeah...Thanks Freedy for ideas but I can't do it with a jerry rigged
amp. It has to look neat, cool, never let em see ya sweat.
I did consider fixing up a portable boom box/radio/stereo so I could run
my guitar through it. But then I found these portable amps out there and
thats the style I want to display.
Of course I'm going with the best tool that will fit the use I have in
mind and that brings me up into a upper low priced amp.
Still at big discount. They have portables that list up above three
hundred, saw one for six hundred. But weight.
Can't have a heavy portable. 15 watts.
Thats the size. Thats the weight. four nob equalizer not just a tone
control like cheaper models have. I NEED that.
Okay so I gotta go and cook some breakfast potatoes and eggs for me and
guest I have this morning.
Blue I'm glad and sorry you understand.
We'll be okay.
I haven't made a CD in a year and thats my longest layoff since my start
with "Homeless Veterans' Christmas (Instrumental Christmas Carols) back
in late 2000. This portable might be helpfull for getting my up and out
and moving.
Damo
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