Schizophrenia Support - Am I "Homophobic"?

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Am I "Homophobic"?

Newton's Cat

2004-10-30, 2:06 am

I live in "sheltered housing" in London. The facilities are very good. However - a few months ago a new assistant manager appeared. A young, black homosexual.

A week after he took up his position he knocked on my door. I had only seen him once before for a few seconds and didn't recognise him. He looked at me, gave me a
"strange" smile, leaned slightly backwards, moved his head in a gesture that sent me the message that I was in some way "not with it", and said, in a voice that would have
made sense if he was well-known to me.

"Don't you recognise me?"

"No," I replied.

He frowned.

"From the office," he said.

I acknowledged this and waited for him to state his business. The rules are that if the staff want to talk with us they are supposed to inform us 24 hours in advance.

"Can I come in?" he said.

I let him in. Once he was in my flat he "surveyed" the place. Looking around, changing the expression on his face several times from friendly to "pasty-faced" critical.

"I've come to do a welfare check," he said.

I tolerated him for ten minutes or so then he left.

"A strange man," I thought.

Over the next few weeks he twice "played silly games" with his facial expressions when I was paying my rent.

So far he was "just a nuisance".

I was informed that my movement sensor was faulty and that an "engineer" would visit
the next day to repair it (we have movement sensors connected to the office, if there is
no movement for 24 hours they check on us)

The next day the engineer, this man, and the manager appeared at my door.

They stepped into my hallway. They had no need to go further as the movement sensor
is in the hall.

"Whilst we're here we'll do a welfare check," said the manager.

I moved to close my inner door - but the assistant manager "nipped" through the gap
as I was closing it. Then stood in the middle of my living room, statue like, holding a
notepad up slightly above eye level, with his pen hovering an inch or so from it. He had
an "odd" smile on his face. The manager leaned against the doorpost and scowled.

I asked them to leave.

They wouldn't.

I told them to leave.

They wouldn't.

"Get out of my flat!" I said in a raised voice.

The manager turned on her heel, walked towards my door, saying, in a slightly louder
than normal voice:

"Call the police!"

In the hallway she marched up and down, saying, 4-5 times:

"Call the police!"

I invited them to continue the "discussion" in their office. Here I "layed down the law".
They were not "obeying the rules".

A week later I got a letter from Head Office warning me about my behaviour. I had
"shouted and been aggressive" - which was a breach of my tenancy agreement.

Several further minor incidents occurred with the assistant manager over the next few
months. I successfully applied for a transfer to another estate.

Here I was interviewed by an African gentleman. His accent was very difficult to follow.
During the interview his phone rang and I could clearly hear a man's voice. The man
interviewing me spoke to him in totally clear english, no trace of an accent - in a
completely "dominant" voice. After he finished the call he said to me:

"That was my partner," and focussed his eyes on me for a second or so to see how I
was reacting.

During the interview he twice said that I would have to pay £10 week until my rent
benefit claim was processed. Both times I told him that I was £100's of pounds in credit
with my rent (I'd paid a month in advance when I first moved into the Housing Trusts
property). Both times he frowned at me.

When the paperwork was completed, and I'd had officially "transfered" to a new flat -
immediately after I signed, he said:

"Can you give me £10 ... £20 pounds?"

In front of me was a "dominant" homosexual, speaking in crystal clear English, no trace
of his West African accent - trying to "control" me.

"I'm a month in credit with me rent," I said, gazing firmly back at him.

He smiled and said:

"Can you give me £20 pounds?"

Here I made a mistake. I decided to hand over £10. I produced a £20 note and said:

"I can give you ten"

"Can't you give me twenty?"

"No. I put this money in my wallet because I need to buy something later. You'll need to
change this"

He took the twenty.

"Are you sure you can't give me twenty?" he said.

"No"

He went and got some change. Instead of handing me ten back he threw the two
twenties on the desk in front of me and said:

"Now you can give me ten"

Next day I rang Head Office and cancelled the transfer.

Am I homophobic?

damodara@webtv.net

2004-10-30, 11:06 am

Newton's Cat?
I wish you luck with your present problem.
I'm scared for you.
Welfare check.....you have the right to unmolested occupation of your
residence.
It seems to me that checking in on your welfare likely means giving the
property the eyeball.
Once otr twice a year inspections, on a scheduel, thats how it should be
done.

Best of luck,
Dambo

http://community.webtv.net/damodara/MystoryasIseeit

Chesucat

2004-10-30, 7:06 pm

damodara@webtv.net wrote:
dwn>Newton's Cat?
dwn>I wish you luck with your present problem.
dwn>I'm scared for you.
dwn>Welfare check.....you have the right to unmolested occupation of your
dwn>residence.
dwn>It seems to me that checking in on your welfare likely means giving the
dwn>property the eyeball.
dwn>Once otr twice a year inspections, on a schedule, thats how it should be
dwn>done.

I do not like prissy little fags! Nor do I like cocky little niggers!

I would've stabbed the faggoty little nigger with a shank! XXXX their
"sensors" and XXXX the pigs!:-(

<chesucat violently twitches>

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Fred B.

2004-10-31, 2:06 am

No you are not. They sound like total and complete assholes.